Oh Mr Sandman where are you?

I feel exhausted all the time now. I also feel like a complainer. I'm now in this viscious cycle of staying up late because I can't sleep. Then napping when Koco naps causing me to stay up even later the next night. When Koco wakes up too early I get him and feed him. While he's confined to his chair I find myself trying so hard not to fall asleep but sometimes I do. I try and I try but it never fails. If in the past this happened I would take something and that was that. I'd get back to my cycle. But now with the baby I can't take anything. K starts his new job next week. I'm so proud of him. It's more money and benefits. Which his current job doesn't have. So I think instead of staying home with Koco I might go find a seasonal job to help with the added expenses of Christmas. Well and the new baby. Then it's back home by February. There's talk of me then going back to school. We think I need a profession. There's also talk of this being the last and if we go that route I hope it's a girl. But if it's a boy I don't think I'd be able to stop wanting another. Either way there won't be another for awhile. After all I'm only 23 I could stand to wait a couple of years. We soon shall see which it is. My appointment got switched to Thursday so I'll let you all know what happens then. See ya later.