It's a....

It's another 3 week wait until my u/s. I tried but the midwife said it was too early and she needed a reason to do it. I was upset because K was there and with his new job it was the last time he was able to go. So I asked my mom to go with me on the 19th. The appointment was good my blood pressure was low and my total weight gain is exactly zero. I did have a little protein in my urine but as long as it's gone next time they said it would be okay. I was waiting to update because I did get some bad news after the appointment and wanted to find out more before I told you guys what was up. I had to take my glucose test early because of my family history. It came back elevated. So I had to go back for a three hour and I just got my test results back earlier today. I am officially diagnosed gestational diabetic. This is why I've been feeling this way. So tired and crappy all the time. And also the reason why I am now 100% postitive I will be having another c-section. (AAhhhhh) Anyways about an hour after the test I nearly passed out and I knew that wasn't good. But I knew it could happen because last time with Koco I was borderline and PCOS has a higher risk of it too. So I go back tomorrow for a class with a nutritionist and then I start my diet. I'm a little dissapointed in myself but only I can make it better. So I start the diet and then I go back for another test in a month. If the diet is working then all is well and I just keep it up until I have the baby. If I'm elevated then too then I'm not sure what we'll do, although considering what my sister went through I do have an idea. I'm going to go work on my pie because I know apple pie ala mode with be off limits after tomorrow. I'll let you know how it goes.

Oh Mr Sandman where are you?

I feel exhausted all the time now. I also feel like a complainer. I'm now in this viscious cycle of staying up late because I can't sleep. Then napping when Koco naps causing me to stay up even later the next night. When Koco wakes up too early I get him and feed him. While he's confined to his chair I find myself trying so hard not to fall asleep but sometimes I do. I try and I try but it never fails. If in the past this happened I would take something and that was that. I'd get back to my cycle. But now with the baby I can't take anything. K starts his new job next week. I'm so proud of him. It's more money and benefits. Which his current job doesn't have. So I think instead of staying home with Koco I might go find a seasonal job to help with the added expenses of Christmas. Well and the new baby. Then it's back home by February. There's talk of me then going back to school. We think I need a profession. There's also talk of this being the last and if we go that route I hope it's a girl. But if it's a boy I don't think I'd be able to stop wanting another. Either way there won't be another for awhile. After all I'm only 23 I could stand to wait a couple of years. We soon shall see which it is. My appointment got switched to Thursday so I'll let you all know what happens then. See ya later.

17 weeks and feeling pretty good.

I'm officially 17 weeks pregnant today. Out of the first trimester and well into the second. I was throwing up everyday for awhile but I'm doing a lot better. The medicine helped and now I don't even have to take it anymore. Sometimes I just take it easy after I eat and then I'm fine. I also have a pretty bad cold going. My nose is clogged and my throat hurts. I have headaches all the time too. But it's finally starting to look good. I feel pretty good. Koco also has a bad cold. He's got a nasty snot nose and cough. He's also pulling on his ear. So I took him to the doc and was told he's fine. Just keep doing what I've been doing. He did get three teeth all at once and number four looks about to pop any day now so maybe that has a lot to do with it. I got to the doctor on the 20th and am trying to find some way to get my u/s then. I don't think they will but I'm dying to know. I have to know what this baby is. I dream about it all the time and sometimes it's a boy, sometimes it's a girl. Sometimes I want a boy and sometimes I want a girl. I just can't wait to know. I also have to take the glucose test next time, early, because of my family history. I'm not excited about that but I'll do it. Anyways Koco will be home soon so I have to go get a quick shower in. I really wonder how I'm ever going to do it with two of them instead of the one?